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Hi Violet,

Thanks for getting back to me. I’m sorry for hurting you. Yes, you’re right, I didn’t even know him. The only interaction I had with him was at your graduation. A phone came up missing and he accused me of stealing it. It just seemed to me at the time like he was an ex military bro type who wouldn’t be right for you. The truth is, I was being honest. I hope you can understand, that I do love you and it probably will never go away. But of course I love you, I’ve known you your whole life, and your family is like my own.

I had met my wife a year before and we dated. I didn’t know that she was coming back to MT when we found each other again. If it was easy, we would have just dated, but when you’re with somebody from another country sometimes as I’m sure you know, it’s either make the jump, or never see each other again. I love my wife, but it hasn’t been easy, the government made sure of that lol. We will see where we end up, but together or apart, we’ll both be better for it.

At the time, these were just feelings with no logic behind them. When I heard you were engaged I genuinely felt, not jealous but like if circumstances were different.. Idk. I felt like, the guy jumping up during vows at a wedding something to say. When I realized that you were with someone and likely never thought of me that way, I ran from it. I never even said anything to your parents, but they know..

May was crazy, I know I can be an intense person especially thinking that I would probably never see you again.. but I did really enjoy talking to you and finding out about who you’ve become. I was surprised that you were even nice to me, I really appreciated that. I felt a rush of emotions being around you, and honestly just wanted to tell you all this, but didn’t want to make the rest of the time awkward, or make uncomfortable. I wanted to squeeze every last drop out of our moments together.

Not trying to boast, but wanted to share this perspective. Right now I’m making 12k/month with Leif Christian Painting, on my own terms. Sonya, Grandma, you probably see me as unsuccessful, someone who didn’t complete higher education. It was a choice. I worked very hard in coding school, and have been working in tech as a software developer. For the time being, this makes me healthier, happier and I’m so much more free. I just hope you don’t see yourself as better.. it hurt a little to be judged like that. Finishing a degree in classical piano performance wouldn’t be a career move. I’ve made tens of thousands of dollars performing all around the state, but never classical 🤣

I hope that i can be a part of your life, and I hope you can understand that I do love you, in the best possible way that you can love someone. Without desire, agenda or expectations. I just hope we can at least be friends, and that you will continue to be a part of my life, in whatever way. I just hope you don’t run from who you are to become someone else. If you ever need anything at all, I’ll be here until my last day. ❤️🔥